Often, I am overwhelmed by G-d's patience with my stubborn spirit - not to mention, thankful. For some reason, I always feel the need to tell Him how things should be done, and am quick to remind Him how to do His job, just in case He were to forget. Sometimes, I even give specifics on how it needs to happen, the time frame it should take place in, etc. "Okay, G-d, let's try this again..."
Who am I that I should even know G-d, to feel His presence, to know His peace, or to bring my trials to Him?
The same G-d who holds life in His hands, allows us to enter into His presence and lay our brokenness, anxieties, and sin at His feet. Better yet, He is constantly reminding us to do so! He WANTS us to experience His power, might, His Ruach HaKodesh. He is able to restore life to the dead, breathe the earth into existence, erase fear, move mountains, destroy the adversary, and can take a heart of stone and mold it into what He wants. He can take a deaf ear and make it hear, blind eyes and make them see.
"I, yes I, am the One who comforts you! Why are you afraid of man, who must die; of a human being, who will wither like grass? You have forgotten ADONAI, your Maker, who stretched out the heavens and laid the foundations of the earth. Instead, you are in constant fear all day because of the oppressor's rage, as he prepares to destroy! But where is the oppressor's rage? The captive will soon be set free; he will not die and go down to Sh'ol; on the contrary, his food supply will be secure. For I am ADONAI your G-d, who stirs up the sea, who makes its waves roar-- ADONAI Tzva'ot is My name. I have put My words in your mouth and covered you with the shadow of My hand, in order to plant the skies anew, lay the foundations of the earth anew, and say to Tziyon, 'You are My people.'" Yesha'yahu (Isaiah) 51:12-16
Our King, who has never changed, and will never change, is not surprised by whatever circumstance may arise. He fights for us. The battle has been won, not by our strength. Who am I to question G-d? He is the only constant in this ever changing world. He is trustworthy and keeps His promises. Our G-d does not fail. He provides whatever we truly need. We MUST cling to Him, love Him with all our heart, and keep His mitzvot or we will feel defeated. I must lay down my pride in order to have victory through my Master.
"For ADONAI gives wisdom; from His mouth comes knowledge and understanding. He stores up common sense for the upright, is a shield to those whose conduct is blameless, in order to guard the courses of justice and preserve the way of those faithful to Him. Then you will understand righteousness, justice, fairness, and every good path. For wisdom will enter your heart, knowledge will be enjoyable for you, discretion will watch over you, and discernment will gaurd you." Mishlei (Proverbs) 2:6-11
He sees our imperfections, and still calls us to Him. He will not leave us nor forsake us. Whom shall we fear? What shall we fear? There is nothing too great or too small for our G-d. His Spirit is waiting for us to seek Him, to pursue Him as He pursued us. He hears our cries, knows our trials, sees our tears and heartache. His love is a greater love than any of us could ever fathom.
Turn back to G-d and He will rescue you. My stubbornness and pride are what keep me from experiencing His true shalom and restoration. But once I lay those at His feet, His fierce, all consuming, holy presence blows through the caverns of my soul and I know, in my heart, that my Father is with me. There is no need for trying to handle the impossible on my own as long as I cling to HaShem.
"For He will conceal me in His shelter on the day of trouble, He will hide me in the folds of His tent, He will set me high on a rock." Tehillim (Psalms) 27:5
"ADONAI is high above all nations, His glory above the heavens. Who is like ADONAI our G-d, seated in the heights, humbling Himself to look on heaven and on earth? He raises the poor from the dust, lifts the needy from the rubbish heap, in order to give him a place among princes, among the princes of His people." Tehillim (Psalms) 113:4-8